Sunday, January 02, 2005

maybe going away

met w pastor R and SA last last(?) week.. anyways, they seem quit supportive of me going Kuming for a yr, asked me to find out fr LY wat paperwork need to be done etc.. prob need another interview or 2 w one other pastor.

made it seems so much more real.. eversince.. a few things on my mind.. how to tell my parents. and.. keeping eyes on God and not to be scared.. like the last few times i go mission trip when i need to do stuff alone.. walk the thin line of being excited and keeping fears away. thank God He is w me.. remember what Pastor D said, courage is not having no fear, its facing your fears and managing them. Praise God.

made a new friend recently, J. tis encouraging to talk w. its nice to make new friends..

tomorrow going PLAB. SAFTI was real fun.. met some pple i really liked and cared for.. D, I, SK, KL.. Pray i'll like PLAB too, Lord

also been thinking things like.. when i see a friend, or some thing, i'll think.. i may be leaving in 6 mths.. or this time next year, i wonder where i'll be.. or.. all the lovely people i care for here, perhaps shldn get too attached or to see they don get too attached to me.. is it unhealthy to think like this.. i don know.. i dont know lots of stuff, Lord.. i jus wan to trust You with all i know and dont know..

Lord, help me.


4 comments:

ping said...

Yo, hey, jus thought of telling you: please don't rush into making any hasty decision. i know you want to go out to the field very much. however, there are really many ways to do so WITH the blessings of your church. there is really really many ways to go out. and there are many facets to mission dentistry work. ya. be patient,ya? :)

with love,
wp

polaris said...

well, not sure if i quite understand the posting.. cos i AM going with the blessing of the church , dats what im working on now..

Paperman said...

dun be afraid little rabbit...take it a small step at a time yah? God will provide and He will make your paths straight. Pray you meet good ppl in PLAB. You take care!

Seng

polaris said...

thank you vandice, for your encouragement.. i appreciate it.. :)