KS fell ill

poor KS, he called me this afternoon, and sounded so poor thing.. turns out he has v bad stomach pain and would only see doc next day.. poor thing.. pat pat.. God's healing rest upon you.. and give you comfort while you are over there.

turns out wp has linked me on her blog!! dearie pls don link me!! security breach!!! so have jus scanned thru and sanitised a bit of my blog.. keke.. of cos.. not much to sanitise in first place , me being xiang xiang etc.. MWHAHA!!

dear Lord, i pray i will be faithful, starting with small things.. my sm2 grp.. i pray for encouragement from you.. was jus thinking.. actually what many pple jus need is some encouragement.. to reach out for their dreams, to overcome the circumstances and doubts they see and hv.. indeed the devil comes to steal, kill and destroy, and jus by discouragement, he has stolen much.. we mus get back our ground. no more stealing. Lord, You came that we may have life.

no wonder You said we are to come together to spur/encourage one ano towards love and good deeds. cos You know we need encouragement..

i love my planetshakers cd!!

heehee.

something fr romans bible study.

salvation: means deliverance from the bad things. and on the positive side, means entering into blessings and wonderful fellowship with the Lord. praise the Lord. so cool!

okies me go eat dinner!

xiangxiang

hihi.. me again.. been praying more these days and am encouraged when my little prayers are answered.. like setting up meeting w LY, and that my outing with the PRC students wld be on fri so i can go hill climbing on sat.. and jus received news my patient is getting better, tho not fully recovered yet, but its a good sign. thank God.

realised its important to pray abt my own needs.. even if its something like praying i'll love God more, and esp w small things.. praying is a sign of faith and communing w Him too.. and when i follow the format in matthew (ie our Father who art in heaven..etc) (ie 1)praise God, 2) pray for own needs, 3) pray for others 4) confess sins, 5) forgive others. etc..) for Thine is the kingdom and glory forever. amen. even praying for things like outing w friends or cell to be good time of fellowship is encouraging too.. guess it keeps my heart connected.. to tell God about my needs and ask Him to bless and HELP!.. hee

Dear Lord.. i pray for the hill climbing to be a positive experience for me, and fun, and we'll all be safe and no injuries. and if i drive, for safety there and back.

wat i learned today fr purpose driven life (day 21):

protecting the church; it is God who chose to give us diff personalities/preferences etc. God wants unity, not uniformity.. wat it means to me is that i hv to accept one another.. accept the differences. and learn to even enjoy them.. cos it is God's choice to make us diff. so.. i want to respect God's decision.. Cos HE is GOD!!! He BIGGER and know better than me.. :)

okies.

church: a place where pple admit they are sinners, need grace and want to grow. perfect people need not apply.

it also said do not judge and criticise(eg leader).. cos when we do, 4 instant things happen, we lose fellowship with God, we reveal our pride and insecurities, we will hv to account to God for our behavior, and we hurt the church.. someting like dat..

dear Lord Jesus.. please change my heart to be more like You.. change me from within.. then my actions will have resonance.. and not just a form. i don want to have a form, i want to be real. help! only You can do it. In Jesus Name. Amen.

cut hair

went w WP to cut hair in JB yest! q interesting. v professional hairstylists. and costs is comparable to the neighbourhood salon. the hairstylists all have v interesting and artistic hair, 2 w white dreadlocks and hair extensions(look like yang guo). a couple have normal ones but its also done v nicely.

my hairstylist Viny is a youngish chap w shoulder length layered hair, v professional too, slowly snip snip snip, not like the singapore hairstylist who drag the scissors thru ur hair when layering it. keke. i coloured and highlighted and kept telling him i don wan it too obvious.. i think i sounded quite worried. but i like the end product. jus wat i wanted.

dear audience, pls pray i will not worry or brood over my incident at work, but be able to leave it with God as i commit it in prayer into His hands to work things out. and the peace of God to guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus. in Jesus' name. amen

tada!

yes! ive revamped my blog! and added a tagboard!! figured out how to do it all by myself okie... at first the comp jargon was really getting to me.. wanted to throw the towel in.. den.. okie loh.. keke..

so my 3 lovelys and handsome audience please tag me hor.. more things to play.. :)

LY replied my email at last.. keke.. funny cos me and new cell buddy L both got our prayer request answered (this was mine) and we only started praying for each other during cell last week. so praise God for answered prayer!.(her's was to get a pay raise.)

anyways, LY said he and wife coming back for CNY end of Jan, so we'll meet then to discuss my Kunming plans.. reality check and all, all over again when i read the email.. but recovered faster dis time.. (rabbit out of burrow sniffing again)

will start to tell parents when i've met LY w pastors.. ahh!!.. ahh!! hee hee.. :)

hmm

well.. firstly, Praise God that R"s (the girl who was diagnosed with cancer) brother has received Christ..! he's 18 yrs old..

today felt kinda down.. think its delayed depression from the news of cancer.. or delayed trauma reaction.. jus cant seem to make my heart smile.. or it smile for a while then go quiet again.. cant even figure myself out sometimes.. like why i react the way i do.. (thought if anyone would know its me rite!) didnt see this downness coming.. hmm.. haiz.. but i know it will pass, jus need some time..

Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. ps 42

waiting..

still waiting for KS to start a blog.. he says his journal cum emails are like a blog.. eh.. not really leh..

also waiting for LY to reply my last email about china.. will email again if he hasnt gotten back by end of January..

WP's church member, a 13 yr old diagnosed w cancer of knee yesterday, seems the aunt had kids that died of cancer previously.. heavy feelings.. but trust in God. Faith, Hope and Love. God will turn things around, not a sickness unto death, but for the glory of God.

WP, jus like each time we pray for each Thai person to be healed, the battle is not jus for healing, but even more for their lives. as i prayed for R yesterday, i sensed the same battle going on.. so we must pray, and topple over the schemes of the devil. and God is on our side, as we are on His as we pray. do not be discouraged by what you see, but press on. He promises a purpose for all of us. As we pray for R, any combination of things can happen. but as long as we are in His will, it will be acceptable, there will be peace. And faith, hope and love remains. God is constant.

read something that struck me fr purpose driven life book. day 19 (on fellowship.) " Community has nothing to do with compatibility." it is based on the fact that we belong to each other, because of our relationship to God.

that helped me, cos have been having problems with a few pple.. jus their particular idosyncracies dat i struggle to accept.. so even if we annoy each other, family is for keeps, we'll jus find a way to come to terms w it one day.. and don have to worry wat if i dont like my disciple/cell member, or do i choose those i think i'll get along with to be in the same cell as me(?).. it does not matter, cos "in God, all things hold together"(this is a bible verse btw)

another point "..understanding others.. think of how far they have come in spite of XXX..., instead of how far they still have to go." change my heart dear Lord.. that i may treat others as i should, as You have loved me.. i don like myself when i behave impatiently, its like, wats my problem, mann.. SOS!.. there are even those who don know You, or are much bigger shots who have even more patient attitude than me.. SOS pls! pray for true humbleness as You are.. and genuineness in love.

rabbit digs a burrow.. later cell at SA's.. i dunno.. hungry.. look for food..

maybe going away

met w pastor R and SA last last(?) week.. anyways, they seem quit supportive of me going Kuming for a yr, asked me to find out fr LY wat paperwork need to be done etc.. prob need another interview or 2 w one other pastor.

made it seems so much more real.. eversince.. a few things on my mind.. how to tell my parents. and.. keeping eyes on God and not to be scared.. like the last few times i go mission trip when i need to do stuff alone.. walk the thin line of being excited and keeping fears away. thank God He is w me.. remember what Pastor D said, courage is not having no fear, its facing your fears and managing them. Praise God.

made a new friend recently, J. tis encouraging to talk w. its nice to make new friends..

tomorrow going PLAB. SAFTI was real fun.. met some pple i really liked and cared for.. D, I, SK, KL.. Pray i'll like PLAB too, Lord

also been thinking things like.. when i see a friend, or some thing, i'll think.. i may be leaving in 6 mths.. or this time next year, i wonder where i'll be.. or.. all the lovely people i care for here, perhaps shldn get too attached or to see they don get too attached to me.. is it unhealthy to think like this.. i don know.. i dont know lots of stuff, Lord.. i jus wan to trust You with all i know and dont know..

Lord, help me.