yesterday snowed. could not leave house. but tried sledding and shoveling snow..

just confirmed my sg ticket for CNY. phew.. for a moment wondered if i had booked from bogus website..

kaobeikaobu sounds again from chufang.. oh well.

interesting culture.

here is one of the many random condom machines along the roads of Kunming!! Its as common as dustbins in sg!

sign near our rehab dept in Kunming (area look a bit messy, like geylang) Basically the sign says " you will be easily robbed here, please leave quickly!". I thot it is so funny, like the police have given up. hee

i thought of KL today again.. I miss you brother.. wish you were here.. i know you are better off there.. i just wish you were still here..

In USA now.. taking a break after months of running around.. i'm not sure i like this kind of schedule of super busy and then super free.. maybe i do better with just an average level of busyness and then some peaks and eases?.. but it is what it is.. still, PTL for everything..

These few days been thinking of KL, dunno why.. maybe cos been playing the drums in Band Hero game.. makes me think of him. wonder if i would have done anything differently if i had known he would leave when he did.. thank Him that we did get to spend time together when i last went.. at least i got to pick him up from the airport and buy him a newspaper.. i think he did know that i cared(?).. i miss you brother.. would be great to see you again one day.. you are one of the most special family i have met here. I'm glad for the good times and good moments we have had.

Look forward to visiting TCC.. i guess it has been so long since i have attended an english speaking place.. the possibilities are exciting and something to look forward to.. for now anyway.. we havent had a regular place for a long time.. would be nice to settle down somewhere..

the team should be in kunming by now.. wonder how they are doing.. hope the staff had a fabulous time and learned a lot.. :)

time passes slow and fast at the same time.

wa so exhausted and dont know why. came home and veged out on couch and just feel drained.

on thinking i saw 12 patients today when i usually see max of 8. sigh. so stressed. on one hand wan to help them so they can complete treatment but on other hand feel so stressed about time that i feel like a mean dentist. sigh :(

so how.. dont complete treatment and make staff work overtime but feel like i was kind dentist at the end of day? i dont have anything agst the patient, i actually care for them so i wan to finish treatment so they dont need to come back but when they keep doing things that distract or delay it gets on my nerves cos i am stressed that i cant finish for them.. so i snap a bit like ' stop doing that' etc.. sighhhhhhhhh

i think need to balance. being nice might not take as much time? but they really cooperate a lot better after i talk seriously to them.. and delay things less... haiz.. try the kinder way see how.. sighhhh

Our local colleague died suddenly in a road traffic accident yesterday when it was raining..

I feel very sad..

He was also Xiaofang's husband. And we know their 2 boys too.. He is a good brother.

I feel very sad for Xiaofang.

list of things i want for my house

1) L shape sofa
2) metal bar to do pull up on
3) light coloured tiles

wa school is starting soon.. will it be pandemonium with the 2 new staff??!! gosh.. stress.. but not too bad la.. ordered the chinese " developing the leader within you" today.. hope that it will be helpful to Yumei..

Chunyan is in Lijiang.. hope she enjoys her time there and that it will be productive..

the days fly by so fast.. thought of visiting SYL today but she no reply my sms.. wonder if she is in Dali or Kunming or just too busy.. mayb should call her next time..

wonder what the next step is.. sometimes with people coming in and out, and leaving.. i do feel a bit like no energy to get to know new people.. mayb after a while more..

but thank Him for CC and HM, they do seem like earnest girls.. and Yumei seems q committed to getting to know them, even making plans to visit HM's village during mooncake festival.. waa i dont have such commitment yet..

Wanping where are u? miss u! :)

Thought of Kunliang today on the bus out of nowhere.. I miss you brother..

gng for dinner w Isaac and Doris soon :) mayb eat at the 1st lao di fang today.. hmm san xian tang mayb..

today we had Dai food. ok la not bad. Dinner we went to the newly opened Hokkien food place. It is being attacked by the sg pple cos the food there not as oily. Boss there can speak Hokkien! whaha. His Chinese also sounds funny like my Chinese. WHahahha!

I ate there like 3 times this week liao. Isaac also. We went to look for the emperor crockery place today but it was closed!!! China is like that, the food places u like often close and move away. ........

Tomo took the day off liao. Isaac need to go office settle something so maybe i will work on finishing my toothbrushing video.

This week so busy. got 2 new staff! seem like nice girls. hope we can all get used to each other soon.

wed screened abt 70 patients and staff of the hospital. Nice to finally talk to the patients there. We are booked till sept liao. then Thurs went on crazy dentist mode to finish 17 orphan children's teeth, cos they only came for that one day as part of summer camp program. At first suppose to be 33 kids. Thank God in the end only 17 kids need dental work. peng san.

Wanping: come on msn leh

waiting for isaac to make dinner.. today making pasta.. tomo i can work from home, in the morning anyway.. going to work on the toothbrushing video.. wonder if i can get it all done..

lunch was nice today.. went to the emperor crockery place again and ordered their soy sauce chicken again! yumyum

tomo going to make kro poh

hope we can move in to the apartment by august..

gift

Isaac got me VPN for our anniversary gift. isnt that the cutest. now i can surf facebook and blog. :)
i am going to buy him chocolate and its ok i can write here and he wont know cos he doesnt read blogs. haha

KL

sometimes i remember you at unexpected times. like when i was playing the guitar that day, because you were one of my major teachers during our time at SAF. and the other day something happened at the clinic and i wanted to tell you, knowing you would suan me. and i know when i get back to sg i have 1 less person to sms.

i wonder if there was anything left i didnt say the last time i saw u in sg. the last thing i did for you was buy you a copy of the straits times before i left the hospital. but i think what it was was good enough. im glad you are in a better place, not having to suffer or struggle through treatments and illness. you are in His hands, a better place than any of us here.

i wonder if now when i play the guitar it will always carry the extra meaning because it reminds me of you. you have been one of my best friends in the last few years, suddenly. i miss you brother. and i remember you with love.

what a difference a day makes

what a year. 2 ends of the spectrum. good stuff v good.. bad stuff v bad..

cancer. bad stuff.

pple come to Him. good stuff.

fam issues. bad stuff.

more pple come to Him. good stuff.

sigh. what a world.

i love u brother. i dont know what to say. we go eat crab when i come bk.

How Great

How great the love of God.

that He would use His life to exchange for mine.

xie xie ni.

music

It's interesting.. i really enjoy instrumental worship songs now. Wallis sent me a few and i really like them.. it helps me destress after a long day.. sometimes long cold day.. :)

i like.

health cert

went for health check today.. they took 4 vials of blood! 6 stations. they gave L her wrong blood type prev.. so dont know how much u can trust them but it is a formality we have to go thru.. they measured me 166 cm w shoes! i thought i was 168! mayb i am only 164!! wah piang. Isaac said something abt pple getting older will shrink.. :p

now feeling v tired.. dunno if its the exertion of getting my blood taken or gng thru the system or that it was super cold today .. like 3 degrees loh.

Thank God, while we were at the health check place J got a call that the hospital signed the contract. that is super super awesome news. cant describe how awesome it is. we havent even signed our part yet!

And now i am feeling a bit stressed cos venturing out in unfamiliar waters. sigh. :|

Help me Lord. Help! Pray for Your grace to lead me through. Thank You for today, for the opportunity to talk to WLH.

long day

It's been a long time since i blogged. due to this land's habit of blocking websites.

We had a retirement party for I and M today. they are truly amazing and wonderful brother and sister. really beautiful lives. like the verse, the fragrance of Christ.

signed up for Idem this week. Isaac really encouraged me to. i was hesitating in my usual fashion. so i signed up for it and also bought my airtickets for april. transit in malaysia. not too bad i suppose. now i feel all tired from decision making.

this week started with 2 big meetings. a lot of decisions, a lot to think about. maybe that is why i am tired. sigh. gosh. it was this week we brought P to his new boss place. and also this week we visited FP in hospital. also had some new visitors. i suppose that is why i feel tired.

things move so fast ard here. i thought i would have time to write update, but w the new clinic thing i am tired spinning my thinking wheels around it. Just wait and see. and also trust in Him to direct things. so many things out of our control. who are we kidding, perhaps everything is out of our control..' my times are in Your hands. ' You are in control. Thank You for that.