It matters

Sometimes I talk to You and I say.. so what if I feel this way.. so what if I feel that way.. it doesn matter.. it doesn make a difference in the long run.. in the path I choose to take.. it doesn matter if I felt this or that.. makes no difference in the choice I know I will make, that I want to make, that I am willing to make..

And You say.. It matters. Though it may not change the outcome, or the ending to the story. How I feel does matter to You. It is not hidden from Your sight, You validate it. And You understand, and You accept.

And in my own imperfect way, I want to say.. I love You..Thank You.

Home

Will be back in Sg end of July.. maybe on the 26th (last day of my visa).. should not be returning soon, except for short trips, for maybe 2 yrs? 1 yr? And maybe even then not necessarily back here.. I dont know.. do i want it to be back here.. again, im not sure..

Sometimes people ask me how I feel about going back, and I am a bit at a loss for words.

Well, will be glad to see my family and frens.. and SG is a beautiful, reliable city.. better air.. sunny temp.. fast food everywhere.. relatively clean toilets always..

But I will definitely miss China.. I love my frens here, the work we do, the life here.. working tog as a team, hanging out, the endless possibilities.. You never know what He may bring up and lead next.. and its great to sit back and enjoy the ride, cos you know Who is driving..

A consolation He brings. He is the same God in China as He is in Singapore.

Please look after those I love here.. I know You will..