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i felt v stressed out these few days.. almost as tho im going to burn out.. but tt's when im not distracted by stuff.. then when im alone, the stressed out feeling comes again.. feels like.. everything inside is dried up and evaporated.. and my mind is racing ahead with its own momentum.. and i struggle to keep a sense of reality and God.. feels like i want to cry but i cant seem to cry it out..

everybody please pray..

maybe its partly cos going for mission trip in 6 days.. some sort of spiritual attack? many things not confirmed.. tickets that we will buy there.. prof going taiwan on Thurs.. but.. its going to be an grand adventure with You, Lord. ;)

maybe cos i left Soph's cell 2 weeks ago and i miss them..

maybe cos suddenly feels like i've been driving myself hard the past mths and it finally caught up w me.. tho i did enjoy the activities/people/friends.. and didnt feel tired then..

suddenly jus feel.. stressed out.. at yet at other times.. its ok.. a bit dizzy at times these couple of days too.. feels so.. : .. but somehow i cling on and know You are God and will carry me through.. tho i may not understand why i feel like this now.. Sing ai says perhaps when i rest more, the unprocessed feelings will surface, then i can deal with it.. i think she's rite.. Thank You God for her.. and Wanping!

xie xie Ni..