i went for altar call. cant remember the last time i did that.
was it because i was sitting near the stage.. was it because the person next to me went..
altar call was something about receiving prophecy.. and what struck me about the message was about not trying to 'help' fulfill Your plans in the way Abraham thought he was trying to help when he had a son with his wife's maid..

i feel i have been looking around for something to do. and i still have not found it.
You also said going for altar call is an act of humility..

our plans change again for now. and it is kinda a relief. we can make plans again? it is a strange feeling.

looking for a place to join again.. beginning to wonder if that is ever possible. of cos it is. still.. i must confess i am not terribly hopeful.. and i do find it is q hard to engage.

like-minded friends are hard to find, pple who are just the same amount of weird as you. these are precious when you do find them. :)

twinkle check

i look and you and you look at me and we *twinkle*.

sometimes, i look at You and You look back and we *twinkle*.
but on days where my heart is cold and hard, it is harder and takes longer to find the *twinkle*.
and that is when i realise that all is not as it should be..