tomorrow is Christmas day.

was thinking about the year that has passed and want to remember the parts that are more meaningful to me

Cambodia mission trip was one. learnt a lot.. saw people healed as we prayed , a hunchbacked lady straightened up and was healed of her pain.. a lady with a limp(for a year) was healed after we prayed for her twice.. many others healed of pain, vision restored in eyes..and more.. and many came to know Him.. i saw some of this when i went on a trip with WP church 12 yrs ago.. but this time i saw many more.. Thank God for His kindness.. and so many good things on the trip..

most of the year i just remember looking after Laura.. she is walking now.. was crawling before.. eating more solids now.. i enjoyed the time we went to the SEA aquarium , Isaac' mom and sis were here then too..

hung out some more with WP on our off days.. that was fun..
hung out with H some too..

Thank You Lord

Growing plants inspire me.

Been trying to grow dill for the third time. Growing plants inspire me cos many a time , seeds tt i planted weeks ago and hv given up on, can suddenly spring forth a tiny seedling and surprise me. It reminds me tt invisible to me, God is at work. As i water the nearby plants, having given up on those seeds, life may be stirring in those tiny dried-up looking little things. It reminds me that there is another power at work in this world, one that cannot be denied and is beyond my control. When i look at my metre tall tomato plants , i marvel that such a great big thing with unstoppable leaves sprouting in every direction, came from a tiny little seed.. creation is really quite amazing..

It is an encouragement and also a warning. Be faithful with our small beginnings for we know not where it may lead. Be mindful of our small wrong behaviours for it can also grow out of control.

如果你看到孩子打针觉得扎心，even more so God feels it when His children stumble around in the dark, lost, and when Jesus was crucified..

Laura lifted her head while on her tummy for the first time today.. Im fascinated..

Cheri n i are allowed to take M n M out agn.. :) seems they have improved much while we were absent and miss us a lot. Big M started gng library by herself and her english has improved and kids in school no longer bully her or call her stupid, instead they approach her and want to be her friend.. Children can be so mean.. I was taken aback when i heard it.. Anyway, she is happy w her progress and being accepted in school.. Which i am thankful for.. Small M is more outgoing too.. Praise You Lord for your care for them..

I pray that you will grow strong and healthy
And that you will love Him.

God gives us many chances..

We also must give others second chance, third chance and so on..

hurt people hurt people..

allow God to heal your hurt, and you will lose the impulse to hurt the one who hurt you.. then you can interact with them from a place of peace and wholeness..

At service today:
The power of God is seen not by Christ coming down from the cross, but by Christ choosing to remain on it..

Papa..why is it that when pple pass away, i miss them more than pple who just lose touch gradually..?

woohoo.. i discovered wechat and i chatted w ym, cc and hm today! nostalgia overload.. but i was so grateful to hear some of their good news. Thank You Lord. sounds like they have been running hard for u.. cc is studying Your Word and being active in fellowship and gng for short trip next yr. Hm went home and is serving with the youth.. prev softspoken, seems she is speaking, sharing and leading actively now.. even more heartening is to hear how hm hangs out w cc periodically to recharge and cc got her teeth extracted by ym.. how good to hear of them supporting and encouraging each other.. ym had good news too, of 2 dear brothers, zzf and xp, opening their own shop w the help of a K teacher, and with some timely advice from ym team.. its so good to hear they have new friends who love and support them and seems they regularly appear at ch. thank you Lord. 

was talking to ht the other day.. he says he will go back to africa soon and he will stay as long as You allow him to. maybe he will sell his flat and mayb that is enough for 2 years.. the ground there is hard and u may not see fruit even after being there for a long time.. but even knowing that, he still wants to go, as long as You would have him there. i found that q encouraging. mayb also because of our conversation, i am even more grateful that i was allowed to hear of their good news today.. i know that among the ups and downs, perhaps there is some down times too that they have not shared.. but for all they have, Lord, thank You.

He came back to see me, and i gave him something to read. PTL. 

something bad happened recently.. and they need forensic dntsts.. it reminded me of the time you went to Aceh.. to help identify bodies.. we spoke almost every night.. we never spoke much of the horrors you saw.. we prayed.. even the volunteers needed counselling they said.. this time its very tragic again.. many good people..

If we do not follow Him, we will be like the fishermen who fished all night, expending all our energy with long hours and nothing to show for it..

If we follow Him, we will put out nets down when He says so, and in minutes haul in so many fish that the nets almost break.

If when He tells us to put our nets down , we refuse to listen, we will have no fish.

I Am in the boat with you.
when the waves are crashing outside,
I Am in the boat with you.

Isaac says: humility leads to holiness..

hmm. i guess my love language really is time.

feel like i want to take another long break.. attended an event recently where the photographer was kinda in-your-face about taking photos.. makes you wonder if the focus is on the event or on taking photographs.. how many photos of the exact same thing do you need anyway..

oo on a happy note, YM said her husband is gng to church with her and CY is pregnant. :) maybe i will get to see WX soon..

B surprised me w a pair of tickets to Maleficent today. which he didnt want to watch but he knew i wanted to. :)

i gave some money to a friend's NGO last month to support relocation of some families in another country. and it just occurred to me that the cheque one of my bosses gave me for last month was twice what it usually is, and the extra is about the same amount as what i gave my friend!

God's grace is amazing. another reminder He is my provider, and no man's debtor.

I met my love when I was 16. He had been waiting for me my whole life. He knew me before I even knew me. I met him briefly, but I really got to know him better at 17. He has never left me. He will be the greatest love of all loves. My greatest companion and my Hero. Thank You.