I think it is important to fall in love a few times in your life. The most fortunate thing that happen to me is to fall in love with God. I am also thankful for the opportunity to fall in love with Isaac, missions. And to a lesser extent for shorter periods, things like rock climbing, rollerblading, JS, random periods of my life that taught me various lessons. I guess they also help me to know myself better, what I would give for, and to what extent. Sometimes I look back and think, I dont think I have that energy anymore, like do weekly visits to boon lay and travel to Boy's hostel to teach tuition in my year 3 uni. Or go to chinese church 3 times a week with a band of visually impaired youth. But I guess when He presents you with that challenge, and He gives you the passion to love something, sometimes you can surprise yourself and you dont even think much of it while you are doing it. Days become weeks become months and years and you look back and think, where did that energy come from.

I also think it is important to love unconditionally, not the emo/feelings type of love, but the kind that does what is needed day after day, without need for a return on your 'investment', not looking for 'fruits' or response. This kind of love is the most free-ing, most rewarding, and also the kind that leaves no regrets. Perhaps because it allows you to catch a glimpse of God.

In the end, God is most important in everything you do. 

they are not the enemy.. n judge not lest u be judged..
sigh.
no place to stay..  how..

Romans 12:21

²¹ Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Romans 12:

¹⁷ Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. ¹⁸ If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. ¹⁹ Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”^[d] says the Lord. ²⁰ On the contrary:

“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
    if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”^[e]

²¹ Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

something to keep in mind. treat it as an exercise? 

i dont know what x did but i am so xxx cos i can see it upset him. 

feel v dot dot dot now. grrr. 

  

need some time to consider n calm down.

To my friend: i wanted to tell you, dont be afraid. follow what He has put in your heart, unchanging, all these years. take a chance. find out. we can live with much less then we think we need.

new beginnings one year later.

i would hv thot that by a certain age no more new beginnings. but it seems pple can hv new beginnings anytime! even 40s aso can. 50s aso can.

nostalgia.

there is no 'clean' start.. everywhere. mixed up. old and new mixed tog. v messy. no one stays the same. Human drama. up and down and all around. cant keep track of it all. all fleshed out. Death. Life. Deception. Violence. Pain. Helplessness. Ignorance. Regret. Sacrifice. Forbearance. Love. Humility. Promise-keeping. Trust.

and of course.. Just Dont Know.

sometimes i dont dare to play certain music because it makes me think of u.

listening to worship music now.

its q nice to do that.

rather than watching tv or surfing the net.

quiet house with music.

melancholy? not sure.

shall go eat an orange and think abt it some more.

Exercise faith.

i think there is something so mesmerizing about watching a musician play his instrument.
i like this grp
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rR94NDIfGmA&feature=list_other&playnext=1&list=SP2FCE4EAED0A3000B

one time, two times(?), three times.
12. 26(?). 31.
1990. 2004(?). 2010.
what rubbish is this.
...........

ur gone but sometimes i still think of u.

n u know what

i still love u my fren

i guess i always will.

i guess changing cg is diff let alone changing ch. i miss having regular fwship n being settled in a ch.
who knows what the future will bring. sighs. maybe this is what its supposed to be. not so simple. by what terms do we judge a life well lived. by our job? by the works of our hands? by the things we accumulate? the descendants we leave behind? somehow i think it is non of these things. It's Your opinion that matters, and sometimes what You judge to be good we may not understand or be able to see..
and that is when we need to exercise trust..
and faith.
Sometimes so easy sometimes so difficult hor.
hehe.

T gave me a hug today as i was leaving after tuition. Aww...
H seems ok at math today! still a lot of careless mistakes tho..
confused now dont know if she v bad at math or actually not so bad?? but supposedly test score not so good.. think just need some confidence and practice.. dont know if have enough time anot.. prayerfully yes.. thats a consideration too when i think abt gng usa..

my 8 yr old tuition gal said she hadnt seen me for such a long time (3 weeks) and she had missed me.

aww..

I miss u. maybe because almost everybody here seems to be busy, and u always had time for me. Sometimes i think we might as well go usa.
time flies by and time moves slowly at the same time. 

Excerpt from marriage book im reading.

 

"The ultimate reason for their ongoing conflict was not his lack of affection or her lack of submission... So what was the cause? When one spouse was disappointed by the other, the response was anger and unkindness rather than love and self-control.."

The greatest love story in your life, is not going to be the one between you and your spouse, but the one between you and God.

phone spoil. sad sad :(

M left yest, WP left today, LZ leaving this sunday. :( everybody gone..