dear bro, listening to Jay Chou makes me think of u.. Wanping got married u know.. was a lovely wedding... they look v happy tog. the brothers costumes would have gotten a reaction out of u.. :) would u have hidden in the suite to watch tv till the dinner began too? not that Wanping would have allowed u to. hah. Election is coming.. wonder who u would be supported..

been journaling last few days before coming here. not sure why but it helps me. maybe helps me to quiet down and reflect. PTL even changed the way i interact with Dragon now.. he is a good kid..

back for hardly 2 days and now i have cough..... the weather changes are hard for me to adjust... sigh.

gng TCC later.. Easter today.. never seemed to celebrate it much before.. went on an Easter egg hunt before i came back.. on the pretext of helping a little boy :) but it was so fun to be able to assist him and see his face light up when we spotted an egg and when he opened the plastic ones to find candy inside. Esp cos his mom died a few years ago so it was nice to see him smile..

mayb its silly.. but i miss you brother.. maybe its cos there was news today of another brother who suddenly left due to an accident.. another good young brother gone to Him so soon..

been having so many meetings.. work is starting in earnest again.

listening to Jay Chou.. reminds me of the times we went Karaoke with Wanping.. She's getting married soon you know..

HM plays the guitar q ok.. she played for us the other day. I tried practicing plucking the other day.. I remember how your face used to light up when you held the guitar or played music whether it was on the keyboard or drums. I guess it was something you were genuinely passionate about. And for a moment you would not be thinking of how to suan me. ha. :)

sometimes i wish we could have had more time tog.. but i know His way is best.. i wonder what you would say to that.. but the last few months you seemed to struggle so much.. wanting to fight the illness.. being disappointed each time the test result was not optimistic.. and having to find more strength to continue the fight..

I hope your last few days were good ones.

tomorrow got full day activities!

been back a week.. i like sg.. hope can come back here..

Tomo gng out with Wanping! i really appreciate having friends.. certainly one of His more precious blessings.

more or less settled in, but still get tired easily..

got to throw away some clutter in the room! want to throw more out!!! therapeutic? :)

i like clean and spacious room.. no clutter..

still need 20 CDE points.. hope to get them in April maybe.. dont seem to have any suitable ones for the time being..

i'm not exactly sure why, but all the noises are very irritating..

how weird it is when people complain frequently how poor they are and then go out and spend hundreds on themselves. I hope I wont be like that ever..

some people are more trying to get along with than others.

going back to Kunming in 2 days, then after 4 days head to sg! Can't wait to see my friends and family!!

But before that, need to :(just to remind myself)
1) do performance evaluation with Yumei
2) see if I can promote her to take over my job
3) get picture stuff from Mbeth

yesterday snowed. could not leave house. but tried sledding and shoveling snow..

just confirmed my sg ticket for CNY. phew.. for a moment wondered if i had booked from bogus website..

kaobeikaobu sounds again from chufang.. oh well.

interesting culture.

here is one of the many random condom machines along the roads of Kunming!! Its as common as dustbins in sg!

sign near our rehab dept in Kunming (area look a bit messy, like geylang) Basically the sign says " you will be easily robbed here, please leave quickly!". I thot it is so funny, like the police have given up. hee

i thought of KL today again.. I miss you brother.. wish you were here.. i know you are better off there.. i just wish you were still here..

In USA now.. taking a break after months of running around.. i'm not sure i like this kind of schedule of super busy and then super free.. maybe i do better with just an average level of busyness and then some peaks and eases?.. but it is what it is.. still, PTL for everything..

These few days been thinking of KL, dunno why.. maybe cos been playing the drums in Band Hero game.. makes me think of him. wonder if i would have done anything differently if i had known he would leave when he did.. thank Him that we did get to spend time together when i last went.. at least i got to pick him up from the airport and buy him a newspaper.. i think he did know that i cared(?).. i miss you brother.. would be great to see you again one day.. you are one of the most special family i have met here. I'm glad for the good times and good moments we have had.

Look forward to visiting TCC.. i guess it has been so long since i have attended an english speaking place.. the possibilities are exciting and something to look forward to.. for now anyway.. we havent had a regular place for a long time.. would be nice to settle down somewhere..

the team should be in kunming by now.. wonder how they are doing.. hope the staff had a fabulous time and learned a lot.. :)

time passes slow and fast at the same time.

wa so exhausted and dont know why. came home and veged out on couch and just feel drained.

on thinking i saw 12 patients today when i usually see max of 8. sigh. so stressed. on one hand wan to help them so they can complete treatment but on other hand feel so stressed about time that i feel like a mean dentist. sigh :(

so how.. dont complete treatment and make staff work overtime but feel like i was kind dentist at the end of day? i dont have anything agst the patient, i actually care for them so i wan to finish treatment so they dont need to come back but when they keep doing things that distract or delay it gets on my nerves cos i am stressed that i cant finish for them.. so i snap a bit like ' stop doing that' etc.. sighhhhhhhhh

i think need to balance. being nice might not take as much time? but they really cooperate a lot better after i talk seriously to them.. and delay things less... haiz.. try the kinder way see how.. sighhhh

Our local colleague died suddenly in a road traffic accident yesterday when it was raining..

I feel very sad..

He was also Xiaofang's husband. And we know their 2 boys too.. He is a good brother.

I feel very sad for Xiaofang.

list of things i want for my house

1) L shape sofa
2) metal bar to do pull up on
3) light coloured tiles

wa school is starting soon.. will it be pandemonium with the 2 new staff??!! gosh.. stress.. but not too bad la.. ordered the chinese " developing the leader within you" today.. hope that it will be helpful to Yumei..

Chunyan is in Lijiang.. hope she enjoys her time there and that it will be productive..

the days fly by so fast.. thought of visiting SYL today but she no reply my sms.. wonder if she is in Dali or Kunming or just too busy.. mayb should call her next time..

wonder what the next step is.. sometimes with people coming in and out, and leaving.. i do feel a bit like no energy to get to know new people.. mayb after a while more..

but thank Him for CC and HM, they do seem like earnest girls.. and Yumei seems q committed to getting to know them, even making plans to visit HM's village during mooncake festival.. waa i dont have such commitment yet..

Wanping where are u? miss u! :)

Thought of Kunliang today on the bus out of nowhere.. I miss you brother..

gng for dinner w Isaac and Doris soon :) mayb eat at the 1st lao di fang today.. hmm san xian tang mayb..

today we had Dai food. ok la not bad. Dinner we went to the newly opened Hokkien food place. It is being attacked by the sg pple cos the food there not as oily. Boss there can speak Hokkien! whaha. His Chinese also sounds funny like my Chinese. WHahahha!

I ate there like 3 times this week liao. Isaac also. We went to look for the emperor crockery place today but it was closed!!! China is like that, the food places u like often close and move away. ........

Tomo took the day off liao. Isaac need to go office settle something so maybe i will work on finishing my toothbrushing video.

This week so busy. got 2 new staff! seem like nice girls. hope we can all get used to each other soon.

wed screened abt 70 patients and staff of the hospital. Nice to finally talk to the patients there. We are booked till sept liao. then Thurs went on crazy dentist mode to finish 17 orphan children's teeth, cos they only came for that one day as part of summer camp program. At first suppose to be 33 kids. Thank God in the end only 17 kids need dental work. peng san.

Wanping: come on msn leh

waiting for isaac to make dinner.. today making pasta.. tomo i can work from home, in the morning anyway.. going to work on the toothbrushing video.. wonder if i can get it all done..

lunch was nice today.. went to the emperor crockery place again and ordered their soy sauce chicken again! yumyum

tomo going to make kro poh

hope we can move in to the apartment by august..

gift

Isaac got me VPN for our anniversary gift. isnt that the cutest. now i can surf facebook and blog. :)
i am going to buy him chocolate and its ok i can write here and he wont know cos he doesnt read blogs. haha

KL

sometimes i remember you at unexpected times. like when i was playing the guitar that day, because you were one of my major teachers during our time at SAF. and the other day something happened at the clinic and i wanted to tell you, knowing you would suan me. and i know when i get back to sg i have 1 less person to sms.

i wonder if there was anything left i didnt say the last time i saw u in sg. the last thing i did for you was buy you a copy of the straits times before i left the hospital. but i think what it was was good enough. im glad you are in a better place, not having to suffer or struggle through treatments and illness. you are in His hands, a better place than any of us here.

i wonder if now when i play the guitar it will always carry the extra meaning because it reminds me of you. you have been one of my best friends in the last few years, suddenly. i miss you brother. and i remember you with love.

what a difference a day makes

what a year. 2 ends of the spectrum. good stuff v good.. bad stuff v bad..

cancer. bad stuff.

pple come to Him. good stuff.

fam issues. bad stuff.

more pple come to Him. good stuff.

sigh. what a world.

i love u brother. i dont know what to say. we go eat crab when i come bk.

How Great

How great the love of God.

that He would use His life to exchange for mine.

xie xie ni.

music

It's interesting.. i really enjoy instrumental worship songs now. Wallis sent me a few and i really like them.. it helps me destress after a long day.. sometimes long cold day.. :)

i like.

health cert

went for health check today.. they took 4 vials of blood! 6 stations. they gave L her wrong blood type prev.. so dont know how much u can trust them but it is a formality we have to go thru.. they measured me 166 cm w shoes! i thought i was 168! mayb i am only 164!! wah piang. Isaac said something abt pple getting older will shrink.. :p

now feeling v tired.. dunno if its the exertion of getting my blood taken or gng thru the system or that it was super cold today .. like 3 degrees loh.

Thank God, while we were at the health check place J got a call that the hospital signed the contract. that is super super awesome news. cant describe how awesome it is. we havent even signed our part yet!

And now i am feeling a bit stressed cos venturing out in unfamiliar waters. sigh. :|

Help me Lord. Help! Pray for Your grace to lead me through. Thank You for today, for the opportunity to talk to WLH.

long day

It's been a long time since i blogged. due to this land's habit of blocking websites.

We had a retirement party for I and M today. they are truly amazing and wonderful brother and sister. really beautiful lives. like the verse, the fragrance of Christ.

signed up for Idem this week. Isaac really encouraged me to. i was hesitating in my usual fashion. so i signed up for it and also bought my airtickets for april. transit in malaysia. not too bad i suppose. now i feel all tired from decision making.

this week started with 2 big meetings. a lot of decisions, a lot to think about. maybe that is why i am tired. sigh. gosh. it was this week we brought P to his new boss place. and also this week we visited FP in hospital. also had some new visitors. i suppose that is why i feel tired.

things move so fast ard here. i thought i would have time to write update, but w the new clinic thing i am tired spinning my thinking wheels around it. Just wait and see. and also trust in Him to direct things. so many things out of our control. who are we kidding, perhaps everything is out of our control..' my times are in Your hands. ' You are in control. Thank You for that.

feeling super tired.. another end to a long week.. actually not that long.. but jus so busy..

mayb cos speed doing dentures for the 2 leprosy patients.. and last week was speed clearing the cons and extractions for the other 3 so that they can go home earlier.. wa but q interesting.. i sawed thru 1 patient's full dentures that were 'anchored' by abt 3 teeth on each arch.. thankfully the teeth were v loose so i could extract the denture without too much trouble.. jialat mann.. e things they make at the road side.. he say it was painful and he was glad to be rid of it tho it mean he have no teeth for 6 weeks..

on top of that we went on day trips to village twice for past 2 weeks..
i feel a bit short tempered cos mayb tired.. which is not good i know.. like if things not done perfectly or if staff not automatic enough i feel a bit like scolding them.. but then again, i remember that they honestly dont know how to do so maybe they jus need a clear direction to pick things up.. or not.. dunno. like if the pain is at spot A why are u trimming it at spot B?? which is the other end of the denture?? scratch head.. don understand..

tired.. mayb after next week will be better

now is thinking how to train TR to do complete dentures for her leprosy village patient.. while minimising the number of times she see them.. hopefully, the 2 uncles can go home on Monday.. which means their dentures took less than 2 weeks to do! faster than the estimated 3 weeks.. i realise i do enjoy trying to problem solve and thinking of creative ways to do something using bare necessities.. been surfing the net for videos on doing complete dentures.. hopefully can sort of finish the training in 3 days.. :P.. also hope to train CY to be a denturist.. :P

really need Him to guide..

Whee!!

i'm not sure how but i can surf facebook and blog again!!!! downloaded something and clicked something and here i am!!!!!! im so excited i can feed my facebook pet again but the thing is down!!!! wa piang

anyway, i also wan to blog abt my first year wedding anniversary! so fast.. one yr already!!!!!!!!!

it was like a whole weekend spending time tog. On sat, we watched GI Joe, followed by Isaac's fav Indian food for lunch.. dinner we went to the Korean place where i ordered too much food again.. (eyes bigger than stomach, as he likes to say).. ok la jus left some Korean cold noodles uneaten..

den sunday which is the day itself we went service, dinner we wanted to go Red Star for thai food but it was closed, so we went teppanyaki. Yummy squid and garlic chicken! Monday we still high on good food and made chicken curry fr the packet mix we bought fr carrefour :) yummm

was great fun. :) ok typical sg blog always talking abt food.. mayb cos we been eating china type food for the past weeks so nice to have a change.

Clinic been q busy these days.. tomo gng village! last week also went.. all day trips so far.. but q fun cos we borrow 1 staff fr the other projects.. tomo we borrow TR fr leprosy rehab project to go w us :) real nice to hang out w XM and TR again (we used to be in the same grp in 2005)

this past week was like speed doing dentures for 5 of TR's patients fr leprosy village. V nice uncles and aunty.. v smily tho they have q some disability w limbs and eyes.. impaired eyesight and no fingers and prosthetic legs.. mayb in Sept will get to train her to do some of the denture steps! exciting!

nite!!

wisdom is not the same as intelligence.

wisdom is seen when a man seeks God for answers instead of the ways of the world and his own ways.

the ways of the world and man are insecure. the bricks we use to build our world will constitute its character.

an insecure world is built by insecure bricks. it is only a matter of time. or else the deception can carry them to their grave.

intelligent pple can make foolish choices.

humility and pride. been reading through Chronicles with the girls. God truely always gives grace to those humble enough to repent and ask Him. But pride inevitably leads to ruin and loss. However, some kings choose pride to their grave and their lives end sadly bringing damage to themselves and those around them. How long and how much ruin will it take before we let go of our pride to pursue God humbly and in His terms and not ours..

china blocked blogspot

china blocked blogspot a few months back.. now in USA for 2+ more weeks so can access.. sigh.. bk in china dunno when they will let me access again..

glad

today is a sort of wonderful day. where everything i wished to do occurred. arranged by Him.

had the clinic meeting.
talked w ZF
really wanted to speak w HQ but didnt see him until he suddenly appeared at 4 plus!! got to speak w him. PTL.
did the 2 ops (prayerfully they will heal uneventfully)
went for after work appts. :)

PTL!

Praise the Lord!

!!All heaven rejoice!

Praise the Lord!
Praise the Lord!
Praise the Lord!
Praise the Lord!

Glory be to God!
Amen.

trips!

gng to msia in june and idaho for a mth after that!

even tho its a good number of weeks away its still exciting!
can't wait to see idaho in summer! isaac says its beautiful w many wildflowers..

Kunming having cherry season.. i want to go pick them.. hope can arrange for it b4 the season is over but jasmine says after that is yangmei season so maybe still can go..

tomo is good friday! holiday! phew.. like having holidays.. rest at home.. clinic been q full on past few weeks.. but we are finishing treatment for massage class, so maybe will be free again? who knows.. only God knows. :)

student with one brown, one blue eye

here's one of our students with different coloured eyes.. nice guy, plays basketball. we have 3 students like that and 1 student with 2 blue eyes (all chinese). They are all deaf.

here are 2 links to learn more about why pple have diferent coloured eyes. it seems it's a matter of melanocytes not reaching the right place. it may or may not be indicative of a medical condition.

http://content.nejm.org/cgi/content/full/353/22/2409

http://www.thetech.org/genetics/ask.php?id=226

phone

when we answer our hp here we go "wei, hello?" just to cover all bases.. haha

shoulder ache

recurrent shoulder ache on the right fr dental work. bad posture? hmm.. this week is funny. bad is got a school trip for cancelled last minute which was disappointing but we got over it. good is we had 3 special visitors. :) n i joined a p meeting which was just what i needed.

sermon

this week sermon was on how the cultures of the world are built on 3 main themes.

in the garden of Eden, when sin entered, 3 things happened. Guilt, shame and fear entered the garden. What was missing in the garden.. Repentance, which has to do with taking responsibility. the man blamed the woman, the woman blamed the snake.

the western culture: built on innocence and guilt, ie right and wrong

the middle eastern and asian cultures: honor and shame

animistic culture (fear of the spiritual realm): power and fear

what it means; ie in middle eastern culture, what is more important is maintaining honor. the qn asked is not what is right, but what is honorable. what is honorable is not always right (ie a country harbouring a terrorist and not giving him up because he is now a guest in your house and honor dictates u look after those under your roof) (or, in Genesis, Lot offering his daughter to the men in Sodom as long as they leave his guests alone)

i thought it made a lot of sense. because we are taught a lot about christianity from the western culture, thus when we present the gospel, we tend to focus on what is right and wrong, (the 4 spiritual laws etc) which can leave us feeling a bit cold. There is not 3 gospels, but only 1. We often forget to present the gospel in its fullness.. that at the cross Jesus disarmed all the forces arrayed against us (colossians), removing our fears and anointed us with honor, removing our shame (brought on by sin).

the speaker made an interesting point. he say guilt is feeling bad about something we have done. whereas shame is feeling bad about our person. sometimes shame is put on to us by other pple. and it is possible to feel shame while doing the right thing.

reminds me of a qn posed to me before: if u catch someone cheating in class, will u tell on him. while it is right to report on the person, the shame of being labelled negatively by your peers may stop u.

yes i think in our society, honor and shame and power and fear play a significant role.. pple are always v interested to discuss about supernatural things. Feng shui, superstitions, fillial piety, honor, and shame (often hear parents trying to motivate their kids using shame).

Praise the Lord that in Him we need not fear and we have no condemnation. We have honor restored to us, the power of God in us, and we are seen as innocent through Jesus.

sometimes we get distracted by the accessories and trappings we forget what is the main thing..

That we were lost and dead in our sin.. and God saved us.

O precious is the flow
That makes me white as snow
No other fount I know
Nothing but the blood of Jesus

serving Him

if there is love in my heart, it doesn't matter what i do..

in that moment, i feel the pleasure of God. i feel God. n my heart is happy.

i treated 4 kids fr DL's home today. they were adorable. 3 extractions, 2 shots, it was all smiles. only 1 nervous little boy with tears that dried quickly. 1 little girl even said she hoped she got a shot! so i told her congratulations she is gng to get one :P

Isaac cooked tonight! not bad :P

sermon

heard an analogy today at church. thought it was interesting.

Unforgiveness is like drinking poison yourself and hoping the other person dies.

well put.

He also talked abt keeping ourselves clear like a conduit/channel of God's blessing. keeping watch that we dont get clogged up (w anger, bitterness etc) and hence unable to work as a channel. Also how a dam starts w one log, then ano log getting caught. or how our bathtub gets clogged w 1 hair which then v quickly traps the next hair and it goes on.

scotty!

scott macintyre!!!!!! woohoo!!

crystal

i put a crystal on CY's tooth today! haha. fake crystal she got off a sparkly shirt..

cheap malaysian tickets!!

http://www.malaysiaairlines.com/sg/en/home.aspx

:)

i'm glad we got to speak with a patient today. :) prayerfully, we can do it more often. i'm also glad when we can serve pple from the family who are fulltime. And also pple who need some encouragement.

my cat 2

we are so gng to spay kiki when she gets out of heat.. the pet clinic nearby said they can do it for 200RMB. 1 hour op. need anti-infection shots for 3 days after.

she's momentarily quiet now.. but we are so gng to do it next time.

my cat

my cat is in heat and the constant mewing is almost driving me nuts.

i wonder if the constant crying of a baby is like that too. i hope not..

was reading thru my past 2 yr blog and.. i like what i wrote.. and.. i understand myself n where i was coming from.. i think i'd be a good fren to myself.. haha

i miss my friends in sg.

been watching american idol.. my favourite is Scott MacIntyre! the young man who is blind. they dont show much of him tho.. he's 19, super talented, super smart (he won scholarship and has finished uni at young age), lovely voice, and has released recordssss of original piano cds!! n he has super nice sincere humble attitude.. aww.. i hope he gets thru to top 36 ( heard rumor that he did..)

split pants in China

for easy doing Number 1 and Number 2..

tulips at the green lake!

i like pretty flowers.. :)

i read Wanping's blog :)

i also read Nelson's :)
a lot of nice pics.

Recently i have been asking God for more specific direction about what to do here.. i have not been hearing very well. What is it about, Lord.. the staff.. the patients.. the special friends?.. how should i proceed.. what am i to do here that You desire.. i can't see the next step v well..

i had an inkling tonight.. i think i need to renew the intimacy of communing with Him before He will tell me what He wants me to do.. like.. i cant work for Him unless i am His friend first.. sigh..

Thanksgiving

i've not been waking up the middle of night the past week to 'ahem' go bathroom.. for the first time since the time i was preping for the wedding.. :) it stopped during our last trip to singapore. i take it as a sign my unconscious stress has let up.. :)

great service last sunday. lovely sister from India who shared. We can't do anything worthwhile unless God gives us His love to do it with. And we need to ask Him to give us His love. she says she begs God for His love everyday so that she can do the work of the ministry. she said something about becoming the preaching.. the wordless gospel of love.

interesting

there is a topic that i have been feeling q strongly abt and angst abt the past few months.. mayb it came to a climax last mth. interesting thing is.. we were having dinner and actually talking abt it a few weeks ago.. and i found myself not being able to say anything.. tho i had q a lot to say. something held me bk. i think He held me back. i resolved that night that perhaps talking about it is not something He wants me to do. it would not do me any good. Whether to repeat positives or negatives.. no need to say anything. because its something that needs to be revealed rather than told. i hope i will remember this. there is a time for everything.

book

was reading Isaac's book.. 'revolution in world missions' by K.P. Yohannan

v good book.. but more on that ano time..

this comment was very interesting to me.. it was a piece of advice given to the author by an esteemed brother

'No matter what you do, never take youself too seriously'

:)

Its like don't be so stressed out about the ministry until you burn out.. because His burden is light.. and He is at work together with you.

you need only do your part.

and allow God to be God.

.

John 17:3
Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.

i dont like cults.

if we begin to liberally interpret the Word to serve our message

what are we left with

shopping

want to thank God today, because i went shopping for a tambourine.

at first all my internet research and friends tell me seem to say that it would cost $43.

but i went to bras basah and found one that was $20.

then i went to peninsula plaza and bought my tambourine for $14!! its not as pretty as the branded one but its just what i was looking for. :)

Thank God, He answered my prayer this morning.

shopping!!!!

i had a rather fruitful day of shopping today! so happy. prayed in the morning before setting off. bargaining makes me feel frustrated as i'm not v good at it and i always wonder if i paid too much. today i didnt need to bargain at all cos either its not that kind of shop or the prices quoted were already v low (mayb cos i look like student today, as 1 shopkeeper says)

here's wat i bought!!! conversion rate: S$1 abt 5 rmb (now a bit lower i hear mayb 4.4)

at walmart
jeans 50 rmb (some shops sell 80 to 100 rmb)
2 pairs of rabbit wool socks 19 .9 rmb

on the way to bus stop
track pants 29 rmb (some places sell 70 rmb)
wooden comb 4 rmb

we bought a water boiling flask thing at Guomei for 108 rmb! its 1.2 l and uses the heat fr the bottom device which is better and usually costs 130 and above!

met Jean on the way home and finally went to the 2nd hand clothing stores!
so many cheap winter clothes! it seems they bring bags fr guangzhou to sell there. the clothes all still v good and mostly new looking! i wld only buy a winter coat tho cos other clothing seem to intimate to me.. :)

my favourite buy today!
winter coat for 30 rmb!!! (costs usually over 200 rmb in shops) been looking for one these few days :)

then later..
thermal pants 30 rmb (v good ones!)

then q happy cos the gloves i bought recently for 18 rmb was selling for 30 rmb at some other shops and their quality look worse then mine.. mayb i didnt buy them too high after all.. oh well at most it's only abt S$4.. but i sort of still think i cld have bought them for 15 rmb? 12? i'll never know so shld stop thinking abt it. bad habit..

Thank God :)

happy blog w fabulous pics

http://happyhomebaking.blogspot.com/2007/01/strawberry-jellyhearts-cheesecake.html

i feel so inspired to try the recipes. its like baking demistified.

Thanksgiving Day 2008

our 2.6 kg turkey :) hard to find in Kunming.. 60 RMB (~ S$12)

mashed sweet potatoes with marshmallows on top.. need to put in oven..

all our thanksgiving day food! (Clockwise) Bread rolls, mashed potato, corn, cranberry sauce, turkey and sweet potatoes w marshmallows. :) it was fun. Isaac cooked most of the stuff. I helped boil the potatoes n corn :P..

Thank You God. :)

my 200th post!!

according to the sidenote on my blog, its my 200th post.. interesting

today was an international day.. walked to work with a swedish nurse.. was at the clinic for a while w 2 local staff n hk dentist.. left to help out a chinese american friend w something.. chatted w a singaporean at the next table.. bought a turkey w my american husband.. had dinner w New Zealanders, australian and local friends..

busy day today..

prepping for trip.. stuff to do.. house to clean..

thanksgiving dinner we're gng to try to make for thurs.. haha

turkey

corn

mashed potato

cranberry sauce

marshmallow n sweet potatoes

that's mostly it.. Isaac watching old bond movie now..

we attended a wedding last sat

It was pretty cool, the wedding dinner had 3 minority/contemporary dances, 1 street dance and an MC who doubled as a pseudo getai singer, belting out a few songs

Isaac accidentally ate frog that night for the first time. hehe.

He doesn't think its funny tho. I'd have stopped him but I didn't figure out it was frog till 10 mins later. Not our regular wedding dinner dish. whaha.

6 degrees

Its the coldest day today since i got to Kunming.. I thot it was cold before but compared to today it was nothing. Decidedly nippy today..

some things running through my head..
need to get equipment from Xuemei and order expendables next week for our Dec Banna trip
need to call Tang and maybe go central on Sunday.. and tambourine at 2?
Figure out guitar chords for that nice chinese song..
attend wedding on sat..
Isaac's bday on friday :)

some nice things this week..
finally called the tea shop friend
had lunch w another nice friend :)
the 2 staffs' english showed improvement on our 3rd lesson
met 2 sg friends who i been looking for since coming bk

mayb i shld really bring both the girls to Banna w me.. but i dont know if the group will be too big then.. lodging, food.. mayb a grp of 15.. wait for reply email ba..

dental field equipment

preping stuff to bring for dental field trip..

in case anyone is also doing here's a list of stuff one may need (excluding pressure pot to sterilise )

Logistics

E&D forms for recording, Stationery (pens)

Blood pressure measuring equipment, Alcohol

Sharps container .

Matches/lighter (to start fire)

Detergent, Basins, Soft washing sponge/toothbrush (to clean instruments)

Tissue paper/ toilet paper (to wipe)

Dustbins, Plastic bags for rubbish

Face mirror, Torchlight, extra batteries

Dental equipment

Local anesthetic, syringes, needles (long and short)

Gauze, Gloves, Masks, Gowns

ART equipment

GIC, Spatula, Floss, Vaseline

mixing pad, articulating paper, transparent strips, wooden wedges

cotton roll, cotton pellet

Spoon excavator, Amalgam carver, plastic 6

Extraction

Upper root forceps, premolar, left molar, right molar

Lower root forceps, premolar, molar

Coupland 1, 2, 3

Warwick james, Cryers

Intra-oral mirror, Straight probe, Cotton tweezers

Resorbable sutures (est 1 in 20 cases) (for closure of large sockets or persistant bleeding)

Needle holder, Suture scissors, Toothed tissue tweezers

teeth

this is a bit not pretty so i make the pic small..:P

bamboo worms

they are q nice when deep fried. then its jus crispy and salty. that is the ONLY way to eat worms for me..

cute kitty at honghe

thot

i jus had a thot

'if possible, try to be there for the small stuff..'

it seems hard for pple to do tt nowadays. We are always so busy. Sometimes i find it a challenge to stay in touch w reality n feel human. My mind is like a machine gng off on its own in ano dimension. that's when it helps to chat w an old fren whose connection has been forged over the years.. or a like minded fren..

next 10 day weather forecast.. cold..brr

today we screened the blind students massage class.. abt 20 plus students.. a lot of v bad teeth.. also cos they tend to be a bit older then the deaf or physically disabled students (usually 18 to 20)(most of whom had surprisingly q ok teeth). once again felt kinda sad abt it.. v challenging lives.

i learnt that a common reason for those who lost both arms is from touching wires and getting electrocuted. cos in the village areas they hook up the electricity anyhow and the wires can be left ard dangerously. :(

the student i treated who had no arms had q ok teeth tho, jus 2 small cavities.. he say he brush using his feet to hold the toothbrush. he is a rather bright smiley young man.

carpet

my new carpet came! no more cold tiles! glad.. :)

pic of study room

me and kiki in the study room! remember its usually a lot neater than this.. use imagination. heehee

this is my new kitchen table fr carrefour (rmb 265)(S$53). v glad to have.. :) cos this kitchen has no counters..


my living room.. we are gng to get our carpet delivered tomo.. found today after much search.. phew.. thankfully there was no bargaining required..

going away pic

just before i flew to kunming..

kitchen table

yaay quite happy cos i got a new kitchen table. now i finally have a place to chop veggies and stuff in the kitchen! and it even came w extra racks! abt RMB 265 fr carrefour! i took picture! will put up later.. took pics of house too! (at Lawrence's suggestion) Isaac grumble abt me taking photos of messy house.. but nvm la.. :p just remember usually its much neater then this. hehe

tomo hope to get a carpet for the house.. there is suppose to be this wholesale place.. hope i wont need to bargain.. not v good at it.. :p need carpet cos the tiles get v cold and chilly esp in winter..

carrefour

still buying stuff for kitchen.. went carrefour just now for 3rd time since i came.. bought soup ladle, wok ladle, seasoning organiser etc.. haha.. looked at a table for the kitchen.. i think meat is cheaper there then in market..

our mineral water container brand went out of business and we hv to look for a new one.. :P

cleaned part of the kitchen today.. :P

now i taken to wearing those rubber gloves cos when i clean i use so much soap repetitively.. part of being a dentist.. keep washing hands..

tonite i will try cooking fried spare ribs.. hehe

hopefuly i will get faster and better at this housework thing cos when work starts dont know how will have time to do all this well..

cleaning

i cleaned the bathroom today.. armed w a all purpose spray cleaner and scrub pad.

Tub, sink, floor, walls, etc. ok enough said. Everytime i clean something i feel like i claim it back for my own.

Next i want to clean the kitchen..

unpacking

arrived tues evening.. phew.. interestingly, Kunming Airport kept all the public outside the airport, so it was surprisingly not crowded.. haha.. actually it is due to the unrest in the past few mths, protests/bombs.. :(

thankfully, last few days have finished unpacking.. and we cooked our first meal today. :)

want to buy carpet next.. hope to do it soon.. also been cleaning as i go along.. house q dusty after a mth.. also some dirt left behind by the last tenant.. mayb start work at clinic next week or next next.. geting used to having cat at home.. a lot to get used to..

worship practice

We had worship practice just now for the wedding. I had a lot of fun. Being with my talented good friends singing worship songs to the Lord. :)
Lynette leading worship, Kenneth on the guitar, Roger on the drums, Kunliang on the keyboard.

Kat and I were backup singers today.

:)

hmm

hmm..
hmm..
hmm..
:p

:)

i am thankful that my tax refund came in today.
took a while and i called a few times and that took a while too.
thankful.

it's depressing

It's depressing. Why is it like that.
What do You think. I wish I knew. Think that would help.
I don't want to belong to a ....
Then again, it may not be that bad yet.
Sigh. Not sure.

overseas

Lawrence is in Switzerland
Joel is in USA
Wanping is in Sichuan
Lianshin is in Yunnan
Kunliang is in Japan

sigh..

curry!

i sniffing at yummy curry aroma now at home! wow.. wonder how many more times i will to smell this delicious mouthwatering aroma.. mmmm

mum jus said they may go to Hokkaido w my sis and bro-in-law during my last week in singapore and return jus in time to see me off!!!!!!

see!!!!! jus kidding.. my parents have been truly fantastic and supportive the past months. i'm so impressed and touched as well. Thank You, Lord, for them.

still sniffing curry.. mmmm

gng SGH tomo

i been reading through Jeremiah. Its interesting. Its also interesting that its interesting. heehee

what i did today

I did many things today, thank God. :) thanks to my patient and kind mother who ferry me fr place to place so the things got done quickly too..

1) went to China embassy, confirm i need a medical report from SGH
2) bought Redang bus tickets at golden mile :)
3) called SGH arrange for appt
4) signed contract w caterer for church
5) called SDC, decide to try to finish my points b4 i leave
6) signed up for dental lecture/s
7) went to work at night
8) tried to confirm equipment for sg dental team
phew

check

must write a list of done things to make me feel more encouraged :)

done
1) photoshoot
2) booked church
3) filed ROM
4) booked accommodation for Isaac's family
5) paid deposit for honeymoon
6) collected printed cards
7) booked AD PG and VG
8) picked out music
9) written up church and dinner emcee script (80%)
10) written Isaac's family itinerary (80%)
11) caterer (80%)
12) AD schedule (80%)
13) wrist corsage
14) discussed flowers
15)

not yet done
- send out invites
- write prayer letter
- buy bus ticket to Redang
- get medical report for visa (sigh)
- buy ticket to Kunming

here are my prewedding shots!

http://isaacandszeshan.multiply.com/

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Wanping is in Redang...

i like this pic

Thank God for Wanping who went to see pic layout with me :)

sunny skies!

i want to thank God for many things!

thank God for good weather yesterday, it was raining hard almost nonstop since we touched down on tuesday morning. Photoshoot was yest so really thankful for sunny skies on fri and sat. cos sunny skies on fri was encouraging and made me less worried. And He also reassured me it would be alright. Thank God for the really nice make-up artist lady and the really nice photographer who bought us lunch! :)

thank God for my trip to Idaho! for the fantastic house i got to stay in which was on a mountain and had some forest ard it and deer! all within driving distance to the town area :)


thank God that it snowed significantly for 1 night though it was supposed to stop snowing liao (they had a lot of snow this winter). this meant i got to build a snowman! and see snow falling! also cos there was so much snow this season it covered everything everywhere and was jus fascinating to me. :) i love to walk in it and feel the crunch under my boots. Made my first snow angel! and snowball fights (which Isaac won cos he makes them 3 times as fast :p)(and throws them twice as hard :p) It was fun seeing his family and friends too.

We went to Oregon and saw the coast! Also loved the shopping at the super marked down prices, bought reebok shoes for US$20!!


thank God for Lawrence for hosting Isaac during this trip. :)

thank God for the photographer and videographer i met recently cos i like their work and it is at a good price. was so hard to find one like that..

black eyed peas

WITL.. lalala

shall try to complain less this year.. LL out of hospital :).. went to GHA today. hard to decide... aiyo.... try to book FCBC...

WITL.. lalala

stone cold heart.. sigh. wearied by the wind and the rain. does it mean i go to the place where it is not weary and try to find warmth in it again? scratch head indeed. wats the problem... wats the problem indeed... the Master knows..

lalala..

.

i feel very sad that my fren is in pain. it doesnt help him. but i cant help it. i worry, i try not to worry. and then i worry again. until i also dunno why i worry. but i know i still am. worried. and i pray. need some time. to go to the next phase. need some time alone with Him.

.

i need some distraction? or i need some time for things to settle down.. ? or.. sigh. many new things happened, or are gng to happen this year. some are happy things, some not so. but i know Who will get me through one thing at a time, one day at a time, one matter at a time. i pray my eyes are fixed on Him.
heartpain. :'(

milo

ive been drinking milo a lot recently, dev a sudden taste for it. maybe its comfort food. i dunno..

my brother has gone for his op today. a few hours post op, he still has a lot of pain. Lord please help him. May You bring good things out of this. May Your kingdom come, Your will be done. Please keep him in Your peace.

i went to a shop today w my mum! it was pleasant and even fun. Thank You. :) we will visit 1 more shop and then hopefully can decide..

met Joel for dinner today :) it rained hard. thankfully we had umbrellas. :)

im also thankful that Wanping is my friend. we went to do hair yesterday! it took half the expected time. and we were safe. :) Thank You.

pray that Isaac will be well in Kunming. Please bless him to learn his chinese in Your power. Amen.

Auntie B and Uncle S went back to USA. much touched by their love and support. Aunt B, 5th unc, aunt and Derrick and Shiyue attended service together with me! We had a good time.

:

heartpain.. :'(

thank God for a good holiday

Isaac in Kunming..
Wanping in Thailand..
Kunliang in .. Cambodia?
...

hehe

i'm having interesting thoughts..

been thinking, over the past months, i've
-appeared in a project calender(miss october 2007!)(printed by the Kunming team i was w la)
-shared at my professor's church
-been published (a small contribution to a book project on mission work)

i am so blessed. this is interesting to me.
and i am so blessed. even before i hopefully go overseas next year, a group and some friends have expressed to me their desire to support me financially when i do.
my heart is encouraged by their expressions of love.

and i am so blessed. someone bought me lunch today! hairy crab meal.

Thank You Lord. Please help me to trust in You and learn how to work with You, under Your direction. Thank You for Your grace that keeps me.

What He delights in.

He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.

(Mic 6:8)

“Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom
or the strong man boast of his strength
or the rich man boast of his riches,

but let him who boasts boast about this:
that he understands and knows me,

that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,

for in these I delight,”
declares the Lord.

(Jer 9:23-24)


Mercy. Justice. Humbleness of heart.

12 oct

you pray for what you care for about and you will care about the people/things you pray for.

yes

i'm not always right, Lord. I admit. there's prob a lot i'm not seeing or understanding enough.

but there is a place to be honest, in my position, whereever it is, so let me jus call a spade a spade.

sometimes, i feel v frustrated. i do not understand why a big deal has to be made of everything. to the extent that love becomes complicated, instead of facilitated. sometimes, there is jus nothing significant that i learnt. sometimes life needs to be lived, instead of organised into a learning issue. sometimes, the experience speaks louder for itself than anything else. sometimes.

and like someone said, sometimes i am looking for someone who can inspire me w their life. not the amount of theological arguments they can spout out. an act of kindness i witness, speaks louder than a sermon.

sometimes. i am tired of words. and i wish it could be more real. and im disappointed that it isnt. and im not q sure what to do abt it.

kindness is a language the blind can see and the deaf can hear.

english tuition

ive been teaching my friend english once a weeknite.
its been surprisingly satisfactory.. she learns fast and is a quick study. i'm glad. i pray she will improve her english and it will be useful to her. In Jesus' name, amen. :)

Quirky things abt me

yes, i have decided to start a list! haha. u can add to it if u think u know some, subject to my scanning of cos. :p

1. i like the smell of tiger balm oil
2. i make noises when im not doing anything.
3. i like to sing 'deck the halls' to myself sometimes.
4. i used to experiment drinking soup with macaroni and kangkong stems
when i was a kid.
5. i make a lip smacking sound when i think of food. (Isaac)
6. i will almost faint at the sight of my own blood from cuts/wounds. (ping)
7. i have high metabolic rate. must eat every 4 hours. (ping)
8. i like to rear animals (tho they don't last long.. :))) (ping)
9. i get hungry at 11 am and 4 pm everyday.

so exciting!

i got airtickets! :)

thanksgiving

dear Wanping,
just want to say, I thank God for you.
You are one of the more important and best parts of my life. The Lord has blessed me richly with a friend like you. :)